I hate the heart-sinking feeling of disappointment.

The sudden onset of downcast eyes and a hanging head.


I've always considered myself to be someone who is easily pleased. Show me an act of kindness and I'll show you an eternity. However, when I'm let down, it hits me hard. I do not understand why it is so hard for people, friends and enemies alike, to show common courtesy. It's unfathomable, to me, for so many people to only care about themselves--to lack a vital quality such as empathy.

I'm not trying to preach and I know I often come off as a "Holier than thou" personality type--but I can say that 99% of the time, I try to treat others how I'd want to be treated. I always look at a situation from every angle and treat it as fairly as I can. Is it truly THAT hard to place yourself in another person's shoes? To think of their situation as your own?

I guess it really is difficult to some people and that is what disappoints me. To put forth every effort you have into doing your best for everyone around you and constantly being let down by them. Sitting back and watching people mistreat others. People holding grudges, lying, using and abusing. Witnessing 23 years of that and I still have the naivety to not assume the worst in people--innocent of all of the above until proven otherwise.

Sigh. SSDD.