Where is my mind?

I've lost the relief I once obtained from blogging.  A real tragedy.

I used to feel the weight lift off my chest with every letter I'd type. The heavy burden that maimed my heart dissipating as my thoughts poured on the empty screen.

Have I fallen so far that what once was uplifting has become nothing more than another obstacle to overcome?

It surely feels so.

Wow.

I feel like I've not been here in quite some time. I feel very out of touch with writing now, all of my time and effort has been dedicated to photoblogging, school, and work.

I feel like starting fresh on this blog, wiping the slate clean. I feel it's burdened with the past. However, I cannot stand to delete an expression of how I felt, no matter how utterly ridiculous it may have been.

Nonetheless, I hope that I can get back in touch with writing. It's such a relief to free the thoughts that weigh on my mind.

I have so much I could write tonight, however I'm exhausted.

Maybe next time.

"...And I still don't even know what I need to do to fix myself..."

I hope I am not giving the wrong impression of myself through my blogs. I'm usually quite the optimist, yet here I am...every other post, another rant.

I'm only kidding myself if I think that I can keep this a silver lining kind of blog. My emotions, thoughts, wants and needs are pooling in my mind--my blog is the drain.


I need this release. I need this relief.