I don't ever want to feel unwanted again. I don't want to fear abandonment. I don't want to go through my days thinking that people would be better ogo without me or that if I was gone it would go unnoticed.

I don't want to experience putting my whole heart into someone and my love being expendable.

I want to have value. I want to be someone's forever.

what I really need to do

I want to take in as much of this life as I can. I want to revel in every breath I take.

I want to travel. Need to travel.

I have an insatiable desire to see the world; I want to truly understand the meaning of the word vast. I need to be reminded of my own insignificance in comparison to the grandeur of our universe. I want to be cultured. I want to meet people I'll never forget. Glimpse wonders that can't be unseen.

I need to volunteer. I've found myself to be unhappy when I am uncertain in whether or not I am making a difference with someone or some place in this world. I feel unfulfilled in that aspect of my life.  I want to see people light up when they know they are about to be given the help they deserve. I need to know that I have bettered something or someone. I want to experience what it really means to be grateful.  I want to be humbled. I want to be overwhelmed in knowing that I take what I have for granted. I want to restore my selflessness.

Soon.

well,

When you put it that way it seems like time with me is of little value.  But I suppose that's the epitome of addiction, isn't it?

I love snow patrol. Every song.

Such simple lyrics, but man they can hit the spot on summing up a break up. I am not experiencing any of the feelings in this song now, but at one point in my life I could very much relate. I love that feeling when you  find a song that can bring back those emotions or you can relate to in a specific moment. Makes you feel less alone in your feelings.

I'm always the one who fucks everything up and always will be. No matter who's at fault. Me.

I just can't seem do it right. I don't know why. I guess that's okay. I'd rather take the negativity than someone else. Seems I can handle more than others. Rather me be at fault than another.

It just gets a bit overwhelming at times. Can't handle my overload of self criticism. These automatic thoughts can kill.

Can't shake this mood. It's rather annoying.

I feel like I should go outside, instead I just stare blankly at the wall hoping for a change.